may25Today’s mantra: Om Namah Shivaya which means, “Shiva is both destroyer and re-creator: he brings the dance/cycle of life to an end in order for a new cycle to begin.” This quote from Anatole France showed up in a book I’m currently readying, “Presence” by Amy Cuddy (I’m only a few pages in, but yes, read it). When I read that last night, my heart stopped. Part of us has to die before we can be reborn. Last year, on 1/5/15 I closed on the sale of LLF. I took 8 years of building, 8 years of striving, 8 years of owning, 8 years of blood, sweat, tears and Herculean effort and lightly tossed them into the proverbial fires. Ten days later, on 1/15/15, I entered the jungle of Tikal to work with a Mayan shaman. On the day of my seed reading, my heart fluttered in anticipation of the beautiful things I was prepared for the Shaman to predict for my year to come. Instead as he read the seeds he got very somber and very serious, his translator paused and also got very somber before he said, “You will die. There is a certain death in your near future.” I was rattled to my core. That night, we had our final fire ceremony, much of it was dedicated to cleansing this certain death from my karma. At the end of the ceremony the Shaman said, “I think you are cleared, I think you came here to be cleared. Your work is complete.” Here’s what I know, a year + has passed and I’ve managed to stay alive, but a huge part of me died when I sold what I had built. When I first sold the studio, I was grasping to who I knew myself to be, but she was begging to die. She was on some sort of painful life support system, begging for me to pull the cord. It wasnt easy it’s been a journey, but Om Namah Shivaya. I can’t wait to see what is being born. ‪#‎yogateacher‬ ‪#‎yoga‬‪#‎yogaeverydamnday‬ ‪#‎freedomseeker‬ ‪#‎raiseyourvibration‬ ‪#‎omnamahshivaya‬